Dude, Where's My Calm?

[gothwalk]

I am beginning to realise that I've been in a rather peculiar frame of mind for the last few weeks - for most of the last two months, really. My normal state of Zen calm, go-with-the-flow-ness, has been shallower than usual, such that it's taken far less than usual to stir me up, particularly to annoy me. Small things, which I'd ordinarily take in my stride, have been getting my goat in an unprecedented way. Badly phrased emails, poor grammar, pubs not stocking Erdinger even when they've signs out for it, the existence of right-wingers, the usual level of background idiocy that humanity provides, a missed train, have all been making me grind my teeth and just barely hold on to my calm.

This evening I sat down - after coming home and sleeping for a while - to eat, read a few graphic novels I haven't read in a while, and listen to Kerrang! for a bit. Except Kerrang! now has ads, which loses them this watcher, and, you guessed it, pisses me off no end. I have this new science-fiction universe trying to get out of my head, except that every time I get near being able to write something down, something else irritates me. I spend all my time calming down, and none being calm. I nearly broke out of it about two weeks ago, could feel things settling in my mind, and then it just sort of evaporated again.

This probably isn't evident to most people around me, I know; it hasn't been properly evident to me until this evening, but it is there. I just don't know why, and, yeah, that annoys me too.

Comments

[bluedevi.livejournal.com]

I have suddenly rediscovered how to use AIM, if you fancy ranting in my direction at any stage.

[gothwalk.livejournal.com]

Identity thereon? Currently on the talker as well, at least for a while.

[bluedevi.livejournal.com]

I'm still frecklesinmyeyes, though I'd thought that account was dead. But sorry, I was downstairs being willingly force-fed sci-fi and chocolate pudding by my housemate...

I've put you on my list, anyway, and will shout if I see you online.

[sage-and-sea.livejournal.com]

Maybe there is something in the air, or the stars are in ca-ca; my Zen and my positivity have both disappeared lately. They left notes, but not when they'd be back. Bitches.

[graylion.livejournal.com]

sorry, I got them. don't expect them back anytime soon.

[gothwalk.livejournal.com]

You aren't broadcasting more than I can handle. :)

I remember Kerrang having ads for music, and its own stuff. I don't remember the plain ordinary ads it has now.

[nightmares-fear.livejournal.com]

Perhaps you & the Wombat should start your own AMG - Angry Man Society. You can sit around & bemoan the stankin' idiocy of the world in general while imbibing a few Heavenly Nectar, just to take the edge off of course.

[gothwalk.livejournal.com]

By and large, that's what we do anyway...